The Idea of Home

Hi readers!

Currently, I am enjoying my spring break so I would have plenty extra time to write on my blog. In this post, I would like to take on the idea of home. Hope y'all enjoy it!

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People say that there is no place like home. The place where we enjoyed our childhood, the place where we grow up, the place where we have so many friends and memories. This notion would be 100 percent correct for most people. Why most people? Because some of us has traveled such a long way and could not find place like home.

This idea struck me when I had a conversation with a tutor at the university writing center. She asked me, where I would like to be after college? Yes, many people have asked me this question and it is still long way to go. It is a tough question for me because I do not have the answer and because I could not control what will happen to me after college. She told me about her husband who went to college in New York and now living in the United States. Currently, her husband misses Turkey yet he had spent more time in the US than in Turkey. Funny story, once when he was younger, he sent a mail to his parent in English. He did not remember that his parent do not speak any English.

What about me?
I had left my hometown after I graduate from junior high school. I was fifteen. I had to go to school three hours away from my home, and I only went home once every four months. Now, I am living in the US, and I only went home once in a year. I realize it when I went back home to Indonesia last summer, I met with some of my old friends but I realize that it is hard to maintain conversation - we just catch up on each other. Then I did not have much to talk about. Coming back to my hometown, everything seemed very different. People and places that were once familiar to me, were not familiar anymore. Does people and my hometown have changed? Or is it me who changed so much?

I do not know. What I know is that a place that once I called home does not feel as home-y as before. I am just 20 years old and I have spent a quarter of my life away from the place I grew up. I am excited with my life, but sometimes I am afraid. What if one day I might not have a place that I could call "home"?

"When you finally go back to your old home, you find it
wasn't the old home you missed but your childhood." -Sam Ewing-

Making Life Decision

I believe that most of you, at least once, had been faced with tough life decision. I guess that most of us would talk to people who matters to us on how to make the decision. They could suggest us anything. Yet, we all know that at the end, we are the one who make the decision and we are the one who would be affected by our own decision.

In my 20 years, I had been faced with several tough life decisions. It all started at the end of my junior high school when I had to decide whether to go to a high school 3 hours away from my hometown or not. This decision was very tough to make, because I would have to live far away from my family, I was just 15 years old, I had to life in a dormitory with so many strangers, and it is a brand new high school. Leaving to a new town would mean that I have to start over and tried to make new friends. I decided to go to that high school and having best years of my whole life! Overseas travel, meeting so many amazing friends, meeting my mentor, and the experience taught me to be a stronger and more humble person.

The next major life decision is to go to the US for university or not, at the end of my high school year. It was tough choice for me because, as you all may have known, my mother suffered tumor since I was 13 years old, and the idea to move to a different country 30 hours flight away from my hometown was very scary. I did not understand the culture,  I did not speak the language very fluent, and honestly I had no idea where Lubbock is. Did I take the opportunity? Yes, I did. I am now also enjoying best year of my life. Making great new friends, learning a lot about new culture, be able to travel around the US, and I learned that if we are being honest and genuine to everyone, we could give them happiness.

The thought of moving around is scary. The idea of not settling is frightening. Yet, every time I decided to take the opportunity to move, I am having the best time of my life. I do not know where I would end up after college or maybe in several months. Yet I know that my life is an adventure, and my job is to enjoy it and work as hard as possible. 

"I don't wanna know where I would be in 5 years because I want my life to be an adventure" -Robin Scherbatsky-

New York during Christmas

Hi Readersssssssssss!!

I am sorry for missing another month. I won't have a long writing on this post, but instead I would throwback on my winter break to New York City!! Enjoy the pictures and I wish y'all could be here someday!!

*pardon me for too many selfies*

Inside Empire State Building

New York Stock Exchange

Wall Street

Time Square

Time Square 2

Rockefeller Center

4th Street

Grand Central Station

Central Park

View of NY skyline from Central Park

Belvedere Castle

NYC skyline

Central Park

Madison Square Garden

Empire State Building

Lombardi's - a legendary pizzeria in New York

And of course, the Lady Liberty!

"Once a year go someplace you've never been before"  -Dalai Lama-